Thursday, April 8, 2010

Since You've Been Goneeee...

Well I'm lyrically NO Kelly Clarkson.....but for some reason when I wrote the title to this blog that is the first thing that came to my mind.

Man since I've been gone my life has done a more than once.

So now I wonder when I write will I sound the same, some people tell me that I am different. I don't feel all that different, or maybe I just cant feel it all yet.

I had a year from hell and I know there are worse things out there so please God do not present them to me, I will take your word for it that there are worse things to go through.

This last summer I had a complete and total breakdown ( no I didn't go crazy I just was not me), and now I wish that I would have seeked help or someone would have said....."get some help before you lose it". Because here is the devastating part when you lose it, you tend to do things that are totally out of character and when you do those things there is no way to take them back. They are there, etched in stone, carved out of hearts, and forever burned into your memory bank.
Ok don't go overboard with your thoughts, I didn't kill somebody.

I feel like I could write a book on things that happened. But really I'm not sure I would want anyone to read it.

But instead I think that I will work on getting up the courage to just write this blog.

Believe it or not this is Momma.....and I just wrote my first blog since my life changed forever.